Social Media is a drug..

14 08 2014

I, Ally, have an addiction to social media and websites..

I think I have mentioned this before, but I don’t know if I should be proud of that or not. I grew up without video games or a lot of TV. I was outdoors a lot and playing board games with family members. Hell, I didn’t get my first cellphone until I got out of high school and got my frist job (then again, they didn’t have all the apps as they do today). An even then I didn’t talk to much on it. Thinking back on it, I think it was when I got my first iPhone, which was the iPhone 3 the very first one Apple had out, was when it all went down hill for me. I now literally have that phone on me 24/7/365. Not the original first iPhone, but my iPhone 5. I have everything on that damn phone. Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, YouTube, Twitter, News apps, Vine, e-mail, tons of games.. you name it, I got it.

I still don’t watch a whole lot of tv, but I sure as hell have my face glued to my phone. Drives my boyfriend nuts. He literally only has a work cellphone that his boss gave him and one house phone (which is not cordless by the way). He has no problem with unplugging from the world, to where I just stay plugged in without realizing it. I tell myself all the time, “You have all these apps and stuff to stay connected with friends and other things”. Do I really need all those things? I can’t stand seeing drama on any social media sites, yet, I keep reading them, watching and even at times post my own opinions on matters. Which at the end, makes me no better than the people or situations I am commenting on. I realize I had a serious problem when I find myself at 1 in the morning in bed, on my phone. I even tried to put my phone down, then within 5 minutes like a repetitive action and addiction, I pick up my phone and I am Facebook again. I seriously had to make myself put my phone down and go to sleep. Sadly, moment I wake up, without lifting my head, I am checking e-mail and my Facebook. God, that is so sad..

So, how am I going to fix this?


Well, the only way I can think of is, when I am my vacation give my boyfriend my phone and not bring my laptop. Only time I would check my phone is when I check to see if there are any important missed calls (like a family member calling, etc), then give my phone right back to my boyfriend. I already know I will have withdraws, which only means I have to keep extra busy on my trip. I am going to bring a book and here is a shocker, maybe actually get real sleep! The possibilities are endless! All I know is, if I can unplug myself (aka going off the grid), I can pull myself away from anything. It’s kind of going to be a challenge for me, but I am sure going to give it one hell of a try.

In closing, this means, I will not post anything on any social media sites until I get back from vacation, starting the moment I clock out on saturday from work to start my vacation. With that said, I will talk to you all in a little over a week. Wish me luck!! :)

Stay happy, positive and happy reading.

-A





Toxic

14 08 2014

This week can’t be and go any slower. On Saturday, 5:30 PM I will be on 9 day vacation. My body and feet are really dragging. Work really has me burnt out and I need time away to really relax. To be honest, it’s just not work. It’s time away with my hunny and to escape drama with certain people (ok just with ONE person). I need to refocus. I need to figure out what is important in my life and WHO is important. I am not saying I am an easy person to be friends with either, or that I haven’t made mistakes myself, but there is a limit I don’t cross. Yet, people will cross it all the time. I really need to stop taking crap like that from those who don’t honestly care about me. I learned if someone tells you, they care (no matter in what way), they show it. Maybe it’s me, but I try to be friends with people I really shouldnt be friends with. They are just sooo toxic.

It’s hard to explain. My mind is going 100 miles per minute. I’m confused on how to handle some situations, specially with a certain person. Good note is, this person has me “blocked” and is ignoring me right now. So, I am taking this time to get my thoughts together and see how I am going to shake the anger, pain, confusion, and disappointment. I don’t know if I can let this person back into my life anymore. They keep going in and out, in and out of my life and frankly, I can’t keep going on like that. People are telling me just to let it go, get over it. If this person honestly cared no matter the situation or even a true friend, they would never let anyone or anything keep you from being friends. Of course, I don’t hate this person and it’s obvious this person has a lot to figure out in their life and deal with, and maybe at this time it’s not our time to be in each other life. I know what you are thinking. No worries, no matter how much it hurts, I can’t cave into this person anymore unless some serious changes are made and they prove themselves in HUGE ways. Cause right now, no trust. I don’t even trust the air they inhale, that’s how bad it is.

Who knows.. I am going to clear my mind on my vacation and set somethings in motion. For now, I wish this person the best in life and I hope they keep themselves out of trouble and lastly, I hope it was worth it all. I am moving on.

Anyway, I am going to bed. If I don’t post before my vacation, I will catch you all up sometime after I get back. For now, I am off the grid. Later taters.

-A





Poor Blogger.

3 08 2014

Hello everyone. I honestly have no excuse for not updating sooner, but the fact I was just forgetful and busy. I need a reminder to update more often. Who wants to remind me? You might think I am kidding but I’m not.. lol. Let me know if you are up for the task, by twitting me @CuriousSpirit.

Not a lot has changed. I am still with my sweetie (going on 9 months) and we are going on our first vacation as a couple in two weeks for 8 days. So, we will see if we can be together for 8 nights without getting on each other nerves. If we get along without wanting to kill one another, well, then it’s another sign things are meant to be. The best part of it is, we are gone the week of my birthday. Which makes the week even more fun. My aim though for my vacation is to honestly relax, fully unwind, and clear my head. I plan on unplugging from my phone and lap top as well. It will be hard for me cause I’m on my phone more than I realize and it’s starting to bug me that it’s such a big part of my life. It’s easy for him, but it’s very hard for me. So, I am most likely going to be off the grid for 98% of my vacation. Should be the test of my will power.

As for work, well, work as gotten more stressful and with the advice of close friends and my sweetie, it’s time I leave that place. Which means, I hope to be out of that place before the year is over. Just thinking about that place stresses me out. I am over it all. I really am. So.. changes in that is to come soon, I hope. Of course, finding another job means moving out of this small town. Overall, it’s going to be a huge change for me and out of my comfort zone. Thankfully, I have my sweetie as my rock and support.

This is all I have for now, sorry. Soon as someone reminds me to update, I will be back. Stay strong my friends and don’t forget to love and live! :)

-A





Im here.. Im here..

14 06 2014

Ok.. like I promised, an update, the 411, the scoop on what I am been up too.

For starters, I am still with my sweetie. We are going on 7 months and still going strong. He makes me laugh a lot, makes me feel pretty, he is fun, he is smart and adventurous. I can say, I see myself with him for a long time. He and I are big on trying to keep busy and try new things. We cleaned up the pool he has, so we can swim and I can work on getting my tan on. Next thing we are going to try (weather permitting of course) going on one of Florida’s long bike trails. See nature and get a good work out. I can’t wait. Honestly, been thinking about seriously just moving to Orlando where he is (well move in with him). I just need to find a job. Speaking of which, I am slowly in my heart feel its time that I leave my current job and find something better. So, I also been looking for a job on the side.

I also been looking for more hobbies other than photography (which I am trying to get back into). So I have been watching a lot of YouTube channels on metal detecting and coin collecting. Now I know what you are thinking, but I am telling you from what I seen and read so fair on the web about it all, it’s not only historical findings in it, you can also get money with your findings. I am a beginner and I don’t have a metal detector and I would have to save up for one. In the mean while, I am also looking into coin collecting. Now, I don’t know if I am 100% right or not, but some not a lot of coins made before 1970 like the quarter or half dollars, are made of real silver. I need to do more research on it all, but I spent most of my day looking through all my coins I have in the house and I found some old coins. The oldest one is a 1940 one cent penny. Keep in mind, a lot of pennies back then were made of copper. Then again, not sure if that is true or not, so I will be doing more digging. I will try to keep you posted on that.

Hmm what else… I am on a diet again. It’s hard, specially if I am bored for more than 30 minute cause then I will just eat. What I am doing is, I got an app on my phone that is helping me count my calories and the steps I take throughout the day. Basically, keep my ass moving. Overall, just cut back a lot of my food intake, more of the healthy stuff and stay active. Lost 2 pounds already the first week. Good start in my opinion. Well, I can’t think of anything else so I will be in touch. If anyone out there knows anything about coin collecting, shoot me a message. Any who, I will catch you all later. :)

-A





Im alive… promise!

12 06 2014

Hey everyone..

I am sorry for the lack of updating. Just been busy with life and going on mini adventures with my sweetie. Not forgetting the fact, working a lot too. I will have time this weekend, for a full update. So, hang in there :)

-A





Spring is here!

18 03 2014

Hello everyone :)

I don’t know how the weather is on your guys front, but here its beautiful. Everything is turning green and blooming with clear skies and temperatures up in the upper 70s, low 80s making it warm outside. I am loving it! Granted, yesterday it was all cloudy and rainy, but that is part of it all. Mother natures way of kicking everything back alive after a long shitty winter. :)

In fact, about a week or so ago, the boyfriend and I went canoeing. That’s right, you heard me..canoeing. Floating down that river with the weather the way it’s been was just beautiful. Very peaceful as well. I love how the creatures are being born during this time. We saw baby turtles, baby gators, new fish. Hell, that state park even had a natural spring (aquifer) you can swim in. It was hella cold, but it’s that way year around. We plan to go back there again before Spring is over and hike the area some or a lot. He also wants me to take up my hobby again.. photography. That place is great for taking pictures. The beauty of nature right now is at it’s best. We also plan to head out to the beach once the temps reach the 80s all day. He doesn’t like the beach much, but will go for me. I just love having an active boyfriend who is willing to try new things and go places to try to have a little fun. Oh, and I went swimming in his fresh clean pool this past Sunday! :)

Alright, I have to be honest. I am loving it again being in a city. You are close to everything. My boyfriend is 30 minutes (less on days with good traffic) from Universal and Island of Adventure, malls, state parks, events. He and I are trying not to rush things, but with the way things are I am seeing myself moving to Orlando before the year is over. I am just getting burnt out on this small town. Nothing to do here and you would have to drive over 40 minutes to even get anywhere, even if it’s just to the movies. Plus, work is not getting anywhere either or better. I am in a rut. It is like I am stuck going in circles in that place. So, I will have to quit and find something else in the city, or transfer to another store and hope that place is a little better. Just living here is not doing it for me. Feels like I am missing out on life staying here. I think I am at a point in my life to where, not only am I ready to settle down, but to have a real life. All I know is, being with him, I am coming out of my shell and want to see the world. <3

I am trying to mentally keep positive on things. Try not let fear or nerves talk me out of doing what I know in the long run be good for me. I know I will upset some people or make them mad if I leave etc. It will though show me who are my true friends and will be supportive. Anywho, I need to get some cleaning done around here then I am off to work. If you all like to chat with me or keep tabs on other things I am doing, you can do that by following me on twitter and instagram. I am on them a lot more than I am on here. Talk to you all later! :)

Twitter: @CuriousSpirit
Instagram: Curiousangel81

-A





Updates and stuff.. :)

20 02 2014

Hello everyone…

Like I promised, I am here to give you all updates with what I have been doing for the past few months. I honestly don’t know where to begin, lol.  Well, after my last post , “Dear John (pt 2)”, I wanted to avoid the internet a little bit. I tried to keep busy offline. Didn’t work out to well, but then something came over me. You know that feeling you get when you get in your gut that you need to try or do something? I for one, followed my gut and it led me to someone so awesome and amazing. Yes, I know I said in my last post I was going to be single for a while. Just I wasn’t going to seat around and keep thinking about all that is happened and try to pick it to pieces to learn about myself, etc. It would have just brought up old wounds and keep my mind and life going in circles. So, I picked myself up and met someone new. He is literally the best guy I have been with. We clicked on all levels! No joke! It was like we been together for years. I have no words to even begin to describe him. It’s like “God” finally understood what I needed in my life and he brought it in a form of a wonderful new love. He is adventurous, happy, positive, responsible, educated, got a awesome job (pays well), funny, loving, caring, romantic, supportive, fun MAN! He brings the best out of me. He is my best friend, I can tell him anything. He makes me feel better when I am having a bad day. He makes me laugh when I need it the most and tries to make a negativity into a positive.  Most of all, no drama in his life. We are going on 4 months and I am still smiling everyday day thanks to him. :)

On the other news, work is still the same. My hunny wants me to quit. I told him it wasn’t that easy to do that. Though he told me it was ok, and that he would help me. I told him, we will see how things go by the summer. I will either start looking serious for a new job (In Orlando where he is) or just quit. If I quit there are a lot of factors I have to consider, cause it would effect one other person cause they also relay on my income right now to pay my part of the bills. So, we will see where things go. I told him, when we are together for 6 whole months and if my debt is all paid off. We will talk some more about it, and  with my roommate. For now, I just enjoy my days off with him, doing new things and enjoying his company and love! :)

Overall, I am doing pretty good right now. I just have to fight my way through the mental stress of work and keeping a float here.  I also vow to try new things every week somehow. After all, isn’t that what life is all about? Experiencing its wonders and life? One thing that makes it all worth it, is being able to enjoy it with someone who makes life even better in the process. :)  Anywho, I am off to get some cleaning done and maybe finally getting my taxes done before I head off to work. I will be back soon! :)

-A








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