Sorry for not updating sooner. I know it’s almost been a month, just my last post backfired on me. An with having over two weeks to think about all that was said from both sides, I have to ask myself, ‘What were you thinking to opening up so much like that??”. I am kicking myself. Should have kept my mouth shut (so to speak). Now he no longer speaks to me and it been since my last blog update. He read it, and it chased him off. Apparently, he had/has a big crush on me and I made him feel uncomfortable, specially with the way he felt for me. The hurt and disappointment of him doing has faded away pretty much. Just it’s going to take me longer not to think about him once in a while. I spoke to a long time friend about it all and what they have told me was blunt and to the point. What they said was..quote..
“Hun… you are a passionate person and you are horrible with explaining yourself and thoughts. They usually backfire or hurt someone. You are better at writing out your thoughts and feelings over time. You always been this way. People who are learning about you take what you say wrong cause either they misunderstand what you are saying or read into it too much. That’ their problem. I can go on about that, but I won’t. Now, I can understand from his point of view, too. Apparently, from what I understand, he likes you a lot and he doesn’t want to be that guy where he falls for you even more and can’t be with you cause you have a boyfriend. So, in some ways, hes protecting you as well as himself. That’s caring and you can’t fault him for that. Granted, he should have at least tried to work out a friendship with you despite any feelings that may or may not come from BOTH sides. Also, in my point of view, if he honestly and truly cared for you like he stated, all of this isn’t easy for him either. This hurts him some too and is disappointed. Besides, he never stated he will never talk to you again. Just right now, it’s not a good idea. Let him do him. For now, continue being who you are. Which a beautiful,smart, amazing, spiritual woman. You both met for a reason and if you’re not meant to be in each other life now, maybe you will later. Now let it go for now, move on and if its worth his wild, he will come around on his own. ”
I love friends like that. Honest and upfront. My friend is right, though. So, I am taking their advice and letting it go, for now anyway. Besides, between doing small projects and spending more time with my boyfriend, it keeps me busy. Specially my mind. Don’t get me wrong, I still am playing WoW daily when I can, lol. I am not ashamed to admit, I am addicted. The game can be pretty fun if you are playing with the right people and fun people. I made a few more friends since he left, so I have someone to play/quest with. Anyway, I need to go put in more applications and go organize some things around the house. I will try to update again soon. In the mean time, you all behave and stay awesome!!!!! <3 :)