Finding Balance.

14 07 2012

Holy Batman. I am still being the biggest and the most laziest person probably on this planet!  I am not proud of this. Just it tells me I need to make changes and soon. I am going to hit the gym tomorrow morning early. Cause I haven’t been to the gym in a week. I know, I know! It’s awful. Just things are coming at me in million different directions ,all at once and it’s causing me to not to sleep well at night and waking up early not having the energy to push myself to get myself to the gym or to do anything is catching up to me fast. Hell, I have to push myself to get myself to work.  I am just mentally, spiritually and physically exhausted.

Work isn’t helping. It’s adding more stress than needed. I need to find balance. I need to do something or go somewhere to refocus and put myself back onto the right track. Luckily, I put in for some days off, and it was approved. So, that gives me 5 days of rest. Sadly, I am broker then a hell. Some how my money disappeared (actually from bills and going out with friends). So, I will have to take a rain check on going anywhere relaxing (don’t get me wrong, I will travel if it kills me).  Speaking of going somewhere, next month is my birthday and my mother asked me what I wanted. I told her I don’t really know yet. Then she says, how about for a few days we go visit your sister in Seattle and that would be my gift. I said, HELL YES! Now I just have to go put in for a paid vacation on my birthday week.

Speaking of birthdays. This upcoming Monday is my moms. An I am to damn broke to  give her anything. I feel so damn bad. She knows about it, but I am sure it upsets her a little. I have to somehow scrap together for at least a card, flowers and balloons. Hell, maybe if I can take out 60 bucks from my savings and take her to lunch. Something, so she knows I didn’t forget. Afterall, it’s my mom. You can’t forget about the woman who gave you life!

Been thinking about selling some stuff on eBay or something. Just to get some extra cash. Who knows, if I really put my hobby (photography) into swing I can sell some artsy pictures in frames or something.  It’s either that, or get a second job! I am just a hot mess right now.  For now, I need to find a way to seriously distress so I can figure out what to do next.

Stay tuned..





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